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As a kid, things like futuristic technology and robots were so cool to me for some reason. Things like Tony Stark's suits or just simple robots. Laser guns, the many classes of droids from Star Wars, super fast spaceships and flying cars. These things can range from the more well known things to the more obscure.

I say it was my autistic hyper-fixation that made me love these things that are still kinda prevalent to this day as a young adult (I’m on the spectrum). Only problem is that I can’t do these ideas justice with the skills I have. I can only imagine. Write them down. Actually, writing down the base ideas wouldn’t be so bad.

Nowadays I’ve gotten into things like DOOM and The Terminator as some of the more futuristic stuff. Just violent stuff ig.

Despite the little joke in my profile, I do kinda think I'm bipolar, or at least have some form of it. I go through mood swings a lot and I have a varying degree of depression, which I combat using medication or by trying to ignoring it. Some friends here and there have suggested jokingly that I do have bipolar disorder, but I dunno. I remember asking my Mom on a trip a month or so ago and she said that I don't have it.

If I'm not experiencing what actual bipolar disorder is, what am I suffering exactly?

Newgrounds may not be the best choice of place to ask these questions, but whatever. It's not like I'm hurting anyone, right?

I've been through Hell and back. The demons there are some of the most loathsome creatures you can think of. Spreading cancer and diseases everywhere they walk, secreting an ooze from their pores that smells rotten. Pungent. Something like everything wrong with the human body times ten. These were once humans, now lost and unforgivable souls left to roam the smelly depths of the underworld.

Some say these humans lost it as soon as they were born. Doomed to fail society and to form in groups of their own kind before dying. Sad saps that could never hold up their own generation. Never contributing to their bloodline. Never getting the right people to help them. They keep on sinking and they love it. They love the feeling of being hurt. Masochists? No. Not exactly. It's humility. They bathe in it. Soak themselves in it. Helps their skin nourish and helps them seep that oh so disgusting fluid from their skin and spread it across the plains of the unholy soil, connecting to the roots of planet Earth.

Where the fuck do you think this certain evil comes from? It was always these monsters. I've walked through Hell and have seen atrocities beyond comprehension. You can only survive. Nothing to defend yourself with. You wander too far in places you shouldn't and you end up there. But you see, I was merely dragged. Curiosity killed the cat, but don't they know cats have nine lives? Killed once. Eight more times to live. You look into the darkest part of something, black as coal, and then something pulls you in. A disgusting wretch of a being. It scares you, but only for a moment. You then realize it's scum. Pathetically evil scum. These demons are made of all the most snobby traits. Hypocrisy, self-absorbent, egotism, just things that look highly upon themselves.

There is no leader. There is no God. There is no Devil to control these things. The Devil left them farther away than God ever did, and that's saying something.

You will never understand my torment. The horrors I've witnessed. Because it's Hell. Hell coming to Earth. The delusional minds have already infested all of us. There can only be carnage and complete idiocy to run rampant now.

So anyways, how's your guys' day been going?

Not because of the newer games, but because of old memories and new ideas running rampant in my head. Finally breaking away from Sonic related things and back to something cool and fresh!

-Playing Platinum version (collecting all Pokemon I can/collecting all hidden items I can)

-Making Pokemon related artwork

-Autism kicks in, so I pretend to walk around with Pokemon by my side when I travel places outside my house

-Fascinated by Team Plasma's Colress again

-Bought a DVD with 2 hours of Pikachu related content

-Feeling great!

-Still on crack

Saw this yesterday and was laughing my ass off at it. Just the idea of some kid throwing rocks at a poor animal while yelling something so immature is something to behold.

This is what happened on April 23rd 2005. 20th anniversary coming later this month.

I'm quitting altogether due to mental health reasons.

It's been a good run guys... But I have to go feed my pigs.

Happy April Fools.

75 bucks. Worth it.

Holy crap, I remember posting a few of these interactions of mine a few years back.

My parents aren’t anti-video game. Never have been. The only reason I wasn’t allowed to have most things the kids in the 2010s could have was because they thought I would get addicted or too drawn in to focus on life. At an early age, I wasn’t even allowed to have pencils, pens or crayons in my room. Why? Because they always thought I’d draw in the walls or something despite knowing better.

Wasn’t until I was in second grade when I got a pre-owned Nintendo DS lite from my older cousin for Christmas that came with a few games. I had that DS for the majority of my life and I still remember the night one of the hinges broke off as I was playing LEGO Batman 2. That was a few years ago. I still have that DS in my current home. I bought a DSi and a small 3DS a few years back in order to enhance the old experiences and try getting better ones with the 3DS.

I remember seeing all the kids with their 3DSs and I was like “why can’t my parents get me one of those?”. Even years later before any of this happened, they still wouldn’t let me have this kind of stuff. No Xbox, no PlayStation, no nothing. Naiveness was bliss for the time I suppose, but now I get to make my own decisions.

I hate how my childhood was, not just because of the lack of video games, but I also have to appreciate that it might’ve saved me from something more horrible. I wasn’t all that internet savvy up until back in 2019, and that was probably for the best.

I’m rambling and going different directions now, huh? I got an Xbox One last month and I’ve been playing it a little bit each day. Handy for watching movies too.

Here’s my downloaded content from discs so far: